Our kids met and played together. That’s that then?
Nich is pissed that I haven’t been responding to him – and to be fair, I haven’t. When someone beats you into a puddle and then you are kind of off limits then it’s hard to say that out loud.
As much as I miss the play – and gods, the masochist aches, yes yes she does – I don’t/can’t be that girl any more. It isn’t something that Sy is into – and I get that – the whole kink thing is triksy for most people at the best of times. But if I am to make this deal, then I make the deal and put aside some of it.
I’m not entirely sure how long I’ll survive it. Either that or I’ll have to introduce my kinks back in – slowly slowly. I know he doesn’t understand the places my head goes – and I have to be so careful of that.
But it’s been a year since that first moment where he turned up – wild.