DW- check – but he says that he wants to chase – to pursue – to talk to me – and then radio silence for days – hola mixed messages. He was fun, but in the grand scheme – the silence is pretty telling.
C – in Sassafras – far too needy and intense. The last time, he started in again on why I don’t have a man, a boyfriend, a lover…. I cried but there was no emotional connection with me at all – it’s like he didn’t realise that he’d upset me – just kept going. And when we’re playing he just stops mid moment to ask some inane question.
SM – the baby powder… nope. Again – too intense – stops mid moment to check in – needs too much feedback and spends his time pushing me to do things I don’t want to do – too much kissing and too much up in my face. He keeps wanting me to put my arms around him – actively moves my arms up – so not my thing – don’t push me to be affectionate – let me get to it myself.
A – busy busy – keen but again too much?
I miss Sy – said it and got dismissed…. oh well.
Why don’t I have someone?